Sunday, November 28, 2004
A While
Yes i know its been a while since ive updated. Just havent felt in the mood. Im sure everyone understands just being in the mood to write something. I dont think i really have anything of normal note to say i just thought i needed to jot down some of my thoughts.
I wonder if people always expect that things are going to workout. Like i did this and that could happen but ill expect the best of the situation. Why doesnt anyone just be a realist about it. Yes i know im leaving about the specifics... but im not sure if i have the heart to just let them all out, at least right now.
Life and alot of events in my life have jaded my and hardened me. Im almost at the point of giving in to the anger. I dont want to be that cold person that walks around with a stern face. I am getting there though. I generally consider myself a mellow person, possibly to mellow. I cant hold on to that much anymore. I can feel certain times in the day where im just going to blow up and cause a scene. Ive been good enough to deal with it for now.
My company is most likely going to open a branch in colorado and if so ill have an option to go there. It sounds like an interesting proposition. I just want to know if im going because it sounds like a good opportunity or am i just running away from what i dont want to feel and see here. Or does it matter. If it does both then i should take that option.
I just dont want to be disappointed by things anymore... maybe im just disapointed in me..
Comments-[ comments.]
Yes i know its been a while since ive updated. Just havent felt in the mood. Im sure everyone understands just being in the mood to write something. I dont think i really have anything of normal note to say i just thought i needed to jot down some of my thoughts.
I wonder if people always expect that things are going to workout. Like i did this and that could happen but ill expect the best of the situation. Why doesnt anyone just be a realist about it. Yes i know im leaving about the specifics... but im not sure if i have the heart to just let them all out, at least right now.
Life and alot of events in my life have jaded my and hardened me. Im almost at the point of giving in to the anger. I dont want to be that cold person that walks around with a stern face. I am getting there though. I generally consider myself a mellow person, possibly to mellow. I cant hold on to that much anymore. I can feel certain times in the day where im just going to blow up and cause a scene. Ive been good enough to deal with it for now.
My company is most likely going to open a branch in colorado and if so ill have an option to go there. It sounds like an interesting proposition. I just want to know if im going because it sounds like a good opportunity or am i just running away from what i dont want to feel and see here. Or does it matter. If it does both then i should take that option.
I just dont want to be disappointed by things anymore... maybe im just disapointed in me..
