Tuesday, July 29, 2003
Sam's 30th
So my friend Sam had his 30th birthday. And he hates the fact he is getting old. So go figure his girlfriend would make his bday have a death theme. Where we were supposed to all wear black. So for the fun of the occassion i wrote the eulogy to the death of his youth. So here is the speech i gave.
Dearly beloved we are gathered here to lay rest to Sam's youth. We remember the fun that was had, the friends that were gained and lost. We rejoice in the memories of fun once had. We do not lay this time to rest with words of old man but instead we use words like mature and adult. We shall look forward to the future but we will not forget the memories of youth in the past.
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So my friend Sam had his 30th birthday. And he hates the fact he is getting old. So go figure his girlfriend would make his bday have a death theme. Where we were supposed to all wear black. So for the fun of the occassion i wrote the eulogy to the death of his youth. So here is the speech i gave.
Dearly beloved we are gathered here to lay rest to Sam's youth. We remember the fun that was had, the friends that were gained and lost. We rejoice in the memories of fun once had. We do not lay this time to rest with words of old man but instead we use words like mature and adult. We shall look forward to the future but we will not forget the memories of youth in the past.
Friday, July 25, 2003
Memories
Time has dulled the angry edges
And i wonder why our love jumped off ledges
Im afraid of how we used to be
Im scared of how i lost you and me
when we are good we are great
when we are bad we infuriate
i am more than willing to try
but id like to walk before we fly
so take my hand and hold on tight
and we can make our love take flight.
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Time has dulled the angry edges
And i wonder why our love jumped off ledges
Im afraid of how we used to be
Im scared of how i lost you and me
when we are good we are great
when we are bad we infuriate
i am more than willing to try
but id like to walk before we fly
so take my hand and hold on tight
and we can make our love take flight.
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
Emails...
we sent emails back and forth again and it was nice. Good conversation. and i had that waiting feeling for her to email me back. arrrggghhh... stop me before i get that loving feeling again...
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we sent emails back and forth again and it was nice. Good conversation. and i had that waiting feeling for her to email me back. arrrggghhh... stop me before i get that loving feeling again...
Monday, July 21, 2003
Scared...
I sent an email to my ex... not H but C. She said not to talk to her ever again unless i was ready to be with her again. But i always get in the life is too short for people to be angry and not be friends. So i sent her an email to see how she was... its been like 4 months since we broke up. She sent back a super happy email, was happy to hear from me and talked about how things were good for her. She seemed really happy and nice. and so my dilemma i know will come. if she continues on this happy trail and wants to be the friends that we used to be will i fall for her again? She is putting up all the traits that made me fall for her in the first place. should i try and remind myself of the angry person she was when we broke up. that yelled and screamed for no reason? or am i just thinking to much of things. i should just be happy that my olive branch of friendship was reciprocated by an olive branch of hers. sure i probably shouldnt have sent her an email. but im quirky. and i like to be friends with everyone even my ex's. i mean i cared for them when we were together, and i still care for them even though now were not. is that so wrong to care for people... so in the end im scared about my fragile psyche but thats life and life is nothing without drama.
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I sent an email to my ex... not H but C. She said not to talk to her ever again unless i was ready to be with her again. But i always get in the life is too short for people to be angry and not be friends. So i sent her an email to see how she was... its been like 4 months since we broke up. She sent back a super happy email, was happy to hear from me and talked about how things were good for her. She seemed really happy and nice. and so my dilemma i know will come. if she continues on this happy trail and wants to be the friends that we used to be will i fall for her again? She is putting up all the traits that made me fall for her in the first place. should i try and remind myself of the angry person she was when we broke up. that yelled and screamed for no reason? or am i just thinking to much of things. i should just be happy that my olive branch of friendship was reciprocated by an olive branch of hers. sure i probably shouldnt have sent her an email. but im quirky. and i like to be friends with everyone even my ex's. i mean i cared for them when we were together, and i still care for them even though now were not. is that so wrong to care for people... so in the end im scared about my fragile psyche but thats life and life is nothing without drama.
Love and Hate
I love people and i hate them all the time. I love to see people reach goals and accomplish things. I like to see people be more than they thought they could be. and i hate people when they drive. they just need to get out of my way. seriously i got in the car because its faster than walking so you can tell i like to save time. so why do you drive so slow. and always happen to be in front of me.
Im almost done with my VB class... sad cuz i only went to the first day. he gave us the homework assignments for the class and told us class was based on homework only. so im almost done with the last homework already. probably the easiest class ive ever taken.
Weekend news... friday played tennis in my league then went out with the league people to a bar. different... they are all quite a bit older than me. but its funny to watch old people flirting and being dumb like us... sat did nothing, sat around, was great. sunday played softball, then went to a bbq. drank beer from keg. got a headache came home and slept the rest ot the day away.
ack now back at work. why weekend did you go away so fast...
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I love people and i hate them all the time. I love to see people reach goals and accomplish things. I like to see people be more than they thought they could be. and i hate people when they drive. they just need to get out of my way. seriously i got in the car because its faster than walking so you can tell i like to save time. so why do you drive so slow. and always happen to be in front of me.
Im almost done with my VB class... sad cuz i only went to the first day. he gave us the homework assignments for the class and told us class was based on homework only. so im almost done with the last homework already. probably the easiest class ive ever taken.
Weekend news... friday played tennis in my league then went out with the league people to a bar. different... they are all quite a bit older than me. but its funny to watch old people flirting and being dumb like us... sat did nothing, sat around, was great. sunday played softball, then went to a bbq. drank beer from keg. got a headache came home and slept the rest ot the day away.
ack now back at work. why weekend did you go away so fast...
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
The List
J3N created a list of qualities she would like in her man. So in deference i thought everyone should at least have some standard qualities they strive for in their significant other. And so im going to post mine.
Female...
Fit, not thin i mind you just physically active, can go for a jog, or play some tennis or whatever. (no waifs)
Sarcastic, i love sarcasm, shows wit and intellect.
Intelligence, i dont want a rocket scientist, but someone who can challenge me mentally
Open Minded, open to the fact that people are different and thats okay, and just because you dont like something doesnt mean other people shouldnt either.
Dumb movies, i like stupid movies shoot me.
Financially sound, not rich i mind you, but not frivolous to spend 40,000 they dont have on shoes or something
Will stand up to me, prove to me that im wrong, show me how to be a better person
Can accept an apology, because we know i will screw up sometime
Wont ask me questions she wont like the answer to.
Has more ambition than wanting a job where you wear a nametag.
Likes to go out and drink.
Can deal with my friends, the pot smokers, the drinkers, the athletes, and the intellectuals
Can live with the fact i still talk to my ex's. I dont see them. but i do talk to them to see how they are doing. I cared for them before and im not stopping now.
Not an avid church person. I dont attend church, dont care to. Im spiritual at best.
Likes PDA
Understands that a stereotype is a stereotype and not fact. So that the fact that i was in a fraternity doesnt diminish me as a person. but was an experience that helped me grow.
Will not believe a man is better than her because he is a man. I want to be challenged, i dont want a subordinate. One of my dislikes of religion.
Knows how to dress girly. I dont mean all the time but sometimes
Is not shy about being photographed. Clothed mind you. I like to do photography and what better subject than my significant other.
Likes to go out with the girls. I want a partner not a sidekick. She should be well rounded and have her time and vice versa i would have my time.
Is past their 'partying' days.
Is a little bit artsy.
Makes me want to be a better person.
Nice to have...
Likes to gamble, and or play cards
Likes Get Fuzzy
Snowboards
Likes to attend baseball games, sporting events
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J3N created a list of qualities she would like in her man. So in deference i thought everyone should at least have some standard qualities they strive for in their significant other. And so im going to post mine.
Female...
Fit, not thin i mind you just physically active, can go for a jog, or play some tennis or whatever. (no waifs)
Sarcastic, i love sarcasm, shows wit and intellect.
Intelligence, i dont want a rocket scientist, but someone who can challenge me mentally
Open Minded, open to the fact that people are different and thats okay, and just because you dont like something doesnt mean other people shouldnt either.
Dumb movies, i like stupid movies shoot me.
Financially sound, not rich i mind you, but not frivolous to spend 40,000 they dont have on shoes or something
Will stand up to me, prove to me that im wrong, show me how to be a better person
Can accept an apology, because we know i will screw up sometime
Wont ask me questions she wont like the answer to.
Has more ambition than wanting a job where you wear a nametag.
Likes to go out and drink.
Can deal with my friends, the pot smokers, the drinkers, the athletes, and the intellectuals
Can live with the fact i still talk to my ex's. I dont see them. but i do talk to them to see how they are doing. I cared for them before and im not stopping now.
Not an avid church person. I dont attend church, dont care to. Im spiritual at best.
Likes PDA
Understands that a stereotype is a stereotype and not fact. So that the fact that i was in a fraternity doesnt diminish me as a person. but was an experience that helped me grow.
Will not believe a man is better than her because he is a man. I want to be challenged, i dont want a subordinate. One of my dislikes of religion.
Knows how to dress girly. I dont mean all the time but sometimes
Is not shy about being photographed. Clothed mind you. I like to do photography and what better subject than my significant other.
Likes to go out with the girls. I want a partner not a sidekick. She should be well rounded and have her time and vice versa i would have my time.
Is past their 'partying' days.
Is a little bit artsy.
Makes me want to be a better person.
Nice to have...
Likes to gamble, and or play cards
Likes Get Fuzzy
Snowboards
Likes to attend baseball games, sporting events
Friday, July 11, 2003
nada
nothing going on recently. started my VB class. extremely boring. i finished the first day project in 5 mins while he was talking. i had tapas for the first time. was interesting. went with K. we have had a standard one day a week date night. but its definetely a friend dating thing. we dont makeout or anything. just people who want to hang out on a date. I had and H bout last night, but i am comforted by the fact that they come less frequently and less harshly. yeah its friday... i may take off early. my boss isnt in today...
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nothing going on recently. started my VB class. extremely boring. i finished the first day project in 5 mins while he was talking. i had tapas for the first time. was interesting. went with K. we have had a standard one day a week date night. but its definetely a friend dating thing. we dont makeout or anything. just people who want to hang out on a date. I had and H bout last night, but i am comforted by the fact that they come less frequently and less harshly. yeah its friday... i may take off early. my boss isnt in today...
Monday, July 07, 2003
4th weekend
I had friday off, like i assume everyone did. I went to a BBQ with some friends. Was pretty low key, had some burgers, hot dogs, then sat around and chatted, then played cards. Random note for the day. It was a gathering of friends, and usually we hang out with my friend Ryan and his brother comes along. Which is no big deal. he's kewl. But its an understated thing that like he's a brother of a friend as opposed to a standard friend. So said friend was not at the gathering, he's off in hawaii. So brother and i drove to party together, and i realize i dont really know him well at all as any sort of friend. So we chatted on the drive to bbq, and wasnt too bad. Then after party dropping him off and he was like gimme a call tomorrow if you wanna do something. which sounds normal and all but weird when he's more of an acquaintance than a friend. but in any case on sunday, i invited him out to a dinner gathering of some friends. he declined. but in the least i made the effort to make a friend. because everyone could use more friends :)
Oh but also since my friend was in hawaii i had the run of his house. man it was great. i got a good faux vacation. I had the house, and tv to relax, and just chill. i got to sleep in. and nobody was there to wake me up, or pester me about anything. it was the vacation i needed at the right time. only problem is now.... cuz im back at work... ick...
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I had friday off, like i assume everyone did. I went to a BBQ with some friends. Was pretty low key, had some burgers, hot dogs, then sat around and chatted, then played cards. Random note for the day. It was a gathering of friends, and usually we hang out with my friend Ryan and his brother comes along. Which is no big deal. he's kewl. But its an understated thing that like he's a brother of a friend as opposed to a standard friend. So said friend was not at the gathering, he's off in hawaii. So brother and i drove to party together, and i realize i dont really know him well at all as any sort of friend. So we chatted on the drive to bbq, and wasnt too bad. Then after party dropping him off and he was like gimme a call tomorrow if you wanna do something. which sounds normal and all but weird when he's more of an acquaintance than a friend. but in any case on sunday, i invited him out to a dinner gathering of some friends. he declined. but in the least i made the effort to make a friend. because everyone could use more friends :)
Oh but also since my friend was in hawaii i had the run of his house. man it was great. i got a good faux vacation. I had the house, and tv to relax, and just chill. i got to sleep in. and nobody was there to wake me up, or pester me about anything. it was the vacation i needed at the right time. only problem is now.... cuz im back at work... ick...
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Great
Im feeling great. Things arent going much better than before. But my troubles dont seem so troubling anymore. I even played basketball yesterday and someone said wow youre playing 100% better. which made me quite happy. its probably attributable to the fact that im a little more in shape now and im able to run up and down the court with ease. My troubles still exist but their significance is fading and the feelings are being muted day by day. Im very into looking into the happier side of everything now. So who wants to play?
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Im feeling great. Things arent going much better than before. But my troubles dont seem so troubling anymore. I even played basketball yesterday and someone said wow youre playing 100% better. which made me quite happy. its probably attributable to the fact that im a little more in shape now and im able to run up and down the court with ease. My troubles still exist but their significance is fading and the feelings are being muted day by day. Im very into looking into the happier side of everything now. So who wants to play?
